Hey, Remember Me... Halie?

Everyone hears the stories about friendships coming and going in high school. Nothing stays the same they say. When I was littler of course I heard my fair share, and it scared me. I would get a sick feeling in the pit of my stomach and think "You have to LET it go to lose a friendship!" I hated it when people would discuss how they'd lost friends and how it hurt, but it was meant to be. Not meant to be. Again the words would strike fear in me. I imagined losing a friend, and it hurt. But then I imagined losing a friend who was still around, that I ALLOWED to be around on a regular basis without acknowledging the history and camaraderie between us and it seemed unbearable. I shook my head at the people who allowed their friendship to be neglected and corroded and I knew I'd never allow such a thing to happen myself. My friends were too valuable to me. 5 or 6 years later and I'm in high school, the dreaded time by many. High school is reputed for many things: dirty minds, drama, obsessiveness, texting, and mood swings to name a few, and I've managed to avoid only a few. I don't have a dirty mind, am not obsessive... obsessively, and am not TOO terribly dramatic (I think?). But friends still mean a lot to me. And lately I miss two of my friends especially. Zach and Emily are undoubtedly my oldest friends. They're amazing, honest and good people. Lately, though, suckishly I haven't really talked to them much. We don't seem to get online at the same times, my facebook-phone connection is bad and let's face it - I don't get online as much as I used to. I can see the wear on the friendships show and it pains me. I love them, and last I checked they loved me too, so I know it has to be just a rough spot. It has to be! I don't want to lose them... I don't want it to be one of those friendships where you meet years after the friendship has slowed to nothing in some grocery store and they stumble over letters trying to remember your name. It reminds me of when I first remet Zach, he'll never live down his first "Do I KNOW you?" But in this case it would worse, will I have to hear those words again from my best friend? "Do I know you?". I dread the day I'd have to say to them "Hey remember me? Halie?" I love them so dearly, they're more family than friend now, and their youngest Jeni of course, she is adorable. I love the girl to death and her addition to their family makes them an incredible and unbelievable group. I pray that our friendship never errodes. It's a rough spot now, but my feelings and love for them are undiminished! I miss you guys. I love you, Zach and Em :D.